i feel different...
life seems so different...
it's a changing world.
i don't think i can come home anymore...everytime im back.. it seems like problems keep arising.. and i can't handle this pressure. my mom keeps getting sicker..my dad keeps bs-ing to me about mom's sickness..etc.. i can't handle it!! LIKE WHAT DA F AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!?! i'm not as strong as other ppl.. like really.. everytime i'm home.i just feel like crying myself to sleep . i love my parents to death..and i guess just seeing them so down lately..is making me so sad. even visiting uhs..i couldn't do it. i walked in..and just came out. i really don't like re-visiting my past...i like leaving it the way it was and just moving on with life...i wish i just stayed at western for thanksgiving. i guess western is my new home. i feel so happy every time i'm there. i stand on the bridge on richmond as i walk to class...and breathe..and whisper to myself.."this is my life..." :)
posted by lois @ 4:41 PM
